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Evanescence

Sep 13, 2009, 12:52:06 PM by *NativeDork
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

As though my existence were just a mere illusion.
A trick of the light.
Played on by the mirrors of eyes of the living.
It was just their imagination.
Nothing real.
Nothing to believe.

I am not something that is real.
Or I was.
But I no longer believed me.
As a thing.
As a being of some sort.
Just......
Well that's it.

I grow into a silhouette.
Dark and unclear.
Mystery clouded; and fading still.
Growing fainter by the second.
Can you see me?
Can you see me?

The solid state of existence has now eluded me.
Finding some solid ground to hold onto.
To hold onto me.
I cannot.

Growing fainter still.
I am desperate.
I am abandoned once again.
By existence.
By life.
By breath.
By me.
By all.

Slipping on the imaginary grip I had all along.
Of course I never had it to begin with.
How can a figment of the people's immagination have a solid grip?
Infact,on reality? Never.

As though I were imaginary, I am thought of.
Away

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Letters From Your Concious

Letter From Your Concious 10 Dear broken girl,
Your grip is loosening, you're losing it. You can feel your grip letting go and you feel the emptiness in such waves of overwhelming amounts. It's easy to let go. You want to let go. It's the answer you've been looking for. No; no it's not. Please don't let go now. This path is less traveled, but you're not alone. You do not tred alone in this murky darkness. You never will. I know you want to heal and you want to be the pillar of stone for everyone. But inside you're cracking. Inside you're breaking.
Ever so fragile, you're interior is beginning to crumble. Ever so much, but enough to cLetter From Your Concious 10 by *NativeDork

Letter From Your Concious 9 Dear future,
We can never predict you,can we? We never know why it is you do the things you do. I don't think we should ever know, it takes the lesson away. We're always taught lessons, every minute of every day. We are meant to learn the lessons you have in store for us for a reason. Whether to learn about ourselves,other people, or the world around us. There is a reason for everything, and it's up to us whether we choose to see it or not. Not all of us are open to those lessons you have for us.
We can't pick and choose the moments in our lives, otherwise it would be too perfect and we Letter From Your Concious 9 by *NativeDork

Letters From Your Concious 8 Dear boy from the outside,
Hello, it's been a while since "we" thought of you. It hasn't been easy to erase you from our memory.You've left quite a spell on us,you have. I don't think you'll ever know how much of an impact you had on my heart, and maybe you never will.Your memory haunts her every night when she tries to slumber as close to peacefully as she can. Her heart yearns for you but her head tries to shut you out.
Someone is giving her a sign and she doesn't know how to read it. Is it even a sign at all? She doesn't know and she doesn't want to fall any further than she has. She Letters From Your Concious 8 by *NativeDork

Letter From Your Concience 7 Dear girl on the inside,
You're getting better everyday, fending for your happiness and you sanity. Keeping the demons at bay with vigilance; for that's what it takes to win the war.It's from over, infact it's lifelong. The demos are always luking in the shadows for their golden oppurtunity to take seige of the stronghold. Your fortress of strength and feast upon your rejuvination and suck you dry. And leave you a hollow shell,again.
You have to fight,fight,fight,fight. But you'll never be done fighting, there's always a possibility of falling from grace. Don't take the chance to give them their oppurtuniLetter From Your Concience 7 by *NativeDork

Consider me your concious.

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Dirt Face Friendly with the boot
That kicks your teeth in.
Daily ritual; the start
Of the day begins with
A beat down in the face.

That beating sinks into
Your heart, lower and
Lower everyday.
Shaken down to more than
The core.

Sneers and curses caked on
Your face like the dirt,
Smeared in your eyes.
Helps cover up the tears.
Broken pride burns in your stomach.

The sores only fester
As the debasment grows
Like a parasite on
Your very being.

So bad does it taste
When you can't speak.
So bad does the silence
Break you down inside.

Now packed down in
The dirt; trampled
By the very boot made
Friendly to your self-worth.
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"By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest."Confucius

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(A wave will rise on quiet water)-Gaelic proverbs

"A'chungaidh leighis is goirte,'Si is moth'tha deaneamh feum."
(The medicine that hurts the most is generally the best healer.)-Gaelic proverbs

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Not all of me will die.

"Casting a cool breeze
Supplied by the Autumn
Question where it went wrong
Climbing Jacob's ladder
Climbing Jacob's ladder
Kindly could you re-evaluate
Autumn's animated growth

Autumn indicates the death of beauty as we know
Autumn indicates the death of beauty as we know
Keep on fighting one died from burning at his throat
Autumn swiftly stole the breath of body, mind and soul

Try and come to willingly embrace
Kharma's kiss of withering decay
Death feeds, Hell breeds
Subside in the Autumn

Autumn indicates the death of beauty as we know
Autumn indicates the death of beauty as we know
Keep on fighting one died from burning at his throat
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Current Residence: a place
Interests: Music, writing, thinking, watching YouTube, and watching cartoons
Favourite movie: Wizard of Oz, the Iron Giant
Favourite band or musician: A Perfect Circle, Tool, the Beatles,Radiohead
Favourite genre of music: Alternative,Punk,Metal,etc.
Favourite artist: Van Gogh,=glittersniffer,=CountessGrotesque,~KennedyxxJames
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Skin of choice: I rather like mine....I think I'll keep it.
Favourite game: Soul Calibur 4,Left4Dead,Mortal Kombat
Favourite gaming platform: PS3
Favourite cartoon character: Dib
Personal Quote: "Anyway you choose me; you'll break instead".
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Journal Entry: Thu Jan 12, 2012, 5:49 AM

I got this from the journal of *evilpixie. List five pieces of advice based on your life experience:

1. You CANNOT please everyone
As much as you'd like to make everyone happy, you just can't. There is always someone who is going to tell you their opinion and it's not always going to make you feel good. So don't worry about pleasing every single person on this planet. Just be happy with yourself and as long as you feel it's right, forget everyone else.

2.Your parents aren't complete assholes
This is a big one for me. Even though some of us have tough relationships with our parents, even strained, they did have good intentions some of the time. Our parents went through some hard shit in their lives too and learned a thing or two. Sometimes they do give out good advice. I know for myself, my parents had one or two good pearls of wisdom.

3.Not everyone in this world is out to screw you over
Contrary to popular belief, there are some good people out there who truly want to see you do well in this world. Sometimes you have to dig under a rock to find them, but they're there.

4.This world was not meant to cater to anyone
The world does not owe you a god damned thing. So don't think everything is going to fall into your lap. You have got to work for it and work for it hard. You have to do things you don't always like, but it's worth it in the end.

5.There is a reason for everything
The things that happen to you happen for a reason, whether you know that reason or not. It teaches you a lesson, about yourself and others, and about life. Things just don't happen because they can or the Higher Force you believe in wants to pick on you that day. No. It happened for a reason.

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